Passion and Success (Reblog)

She is one of famous fashion blogger in this Nation. I'm her silent reader, but now I speak up, it just bcoz she inspiring me.

Because I Couldn't Sleep, I Decided To Write
The biggest, scariest question in life is.."what do you want to be?". This question haunts many people, for some even throughout their whole lives, because frankly, it isn't something easy to answer. What do we want to be? What do we want to do? Why do I need to? It's a series of never-ending questions...but it's fun, because it's the whole point of life.

I personally think that every human has a mission in life. Missions can be anything, from the simplest to the grandest form. And that's why we were born. To live the mission and succeed, or at least die trying to. Because without one, then what's the point of time? Time becomes valuable because there's something to achieve at the end of the day.

I happen to grow up in a family where "what do you want to be?" questions were never asked. I think it's because my grandpa and my dad both worked in banks, so they expected us to work in banks too. So no point of asking I guess hehehe. As a kid, I accepted that notion. I thought that's how life works. At that time, I always told my dad that I'm gonna be the next Miranda Goeltom.

Then when I entered university, the thought of having to choose a specific major became confusing. To work in a bank, taking Accounting or Economy would be the wisest choice. But then I realized that I never enjoyed studying accounting and economy in high school. I liked maths. A lot. But the idea to study mathematics for 4 years in university pretty much scared me. So the dilemma started. And I started to question WHY I have to work in a bank. My brother realized my talents in art, because he happened to be the only family member who would actually hang out in my room and notice the things I do or make inside my room. He always appreciated my photographs and photo editing results and convinced me that I should take Graphic Design. He even talked to my dad about this. But dad disagreed, because, well, he wants his children to work in a bank hehehehe. It was a very weird time. I decided to follow my dad's advice to apply for Industrial Engineering in University of Indonesia. Buuuuuut I also followed my (brother's) gut-feeling and applied to Pelita Harapan University for Graphic Design. I got accepted in Pelita Harapan University first and soon started my studies. After (only) 4 days attending the classes, I felt guilty to "hurt" my dad & grandpa, and asked the university whether I could transfer to Industrial Engineering instead.Wish granted. After 1 week, it was informed that I got accepted in University of Indonesia for Industrial Engineering. So I transferred again.

So my 4 years of uni life started. It was tough. I felt like I was in the wrong place. I didn't really enjoy the modules except for Mechanical Drawing. I kept on thinking, "man, I should have just taken Graphic Design". But I just told myself, that everything happens for a reason. So I just faced it and tried to do my best. With tears too, of course. But I survived hehe. Upon graduation, my friends started applying for jobs & got offers from multinational banks, FMCG, mining and oil & gas companies. They all started working very soon. It was so cool to see them work in their dream companies, but for me, it just didn't seem to fit me. The only two companies I wanted to work for was McKinsey and Boston Consulting Group. I applied to both companies but none accepted me hehehe. I didn't know what to do. And then one day, just like that, within seconds, I had the most random thought of studying again. I directly did some research on potential Master programs abroad, and the only one that clicked was the International Business Management MSc. program in Nottingham University. Why did it click? Because their website looked good. Hahah. I'm that weird, I know. Besides, taking Masters in something "design" was not possible because of my undergraduate background. Anyway, I remember it was already July at that time, and the closing date of the enrollment was August. My dad was totally against this idea, because 1) it was expensive, 2) he wanted me to work in a bank (duh!), 3) there's no chance I could get in because the due date was too soon anyway. The latter was because there were too many documents I needed to prepare in such short time, including the IELTS test. Buuuuut being a strong-willed person I am, I took care of the documents all by myself and took the test just like that. And I did it! Hahah! So I asked dad whether he would give me the permission and of course the financial support. He finally did. Hooraaaaayyyy...

Now the following 1,5 years doing Masters was somehow the BEST studying years of my life. I LOVED it. I was able to finally understand the joy of studying. S was my classmate btw.

But life is funny, because after graduating, I still didn't know what to do, or which companies to apply to. So I simply followed S and applied to whichever companies he applied to heheheh. Aaaaaaand it gets funnier. We both got accepted in the same company and got jobs as a quantitative market researcher...;p

During those working years, I admire how S really really enjoyed his work. It's like, he talks about statistics and numbers like how ice cream and chocolates are for me. Like yummy. And I envied that. I wanted to feel as passionate about something. Like, something that makes me feel alive. Like "alive" alive. So I resigned, and moved from one company to another. Friends said I was weird to change jobs so quick like that. But that was all because I kept on feeling that something was missing. Inside me.

You guys wanna know what woke me up eventually? It was because of that Singapore Shopping Race I joined together with Hanzky of Fashionesedaily. I remember, it was in the Uniqlo shop when she was choosing shirts for her husband when I asked, "do you like your job, Hanzky? At Fashionesedaily?". And she said, "do I like it? I LOVE IT!".

Wow.

She LOVES her job. I wanna love something that much too.

Within my working years, I have actually done a loooot of contemplation. My heart said that I should go back and give 'graphic design' another try. Besides, I have never stopped loving art & designing, and my inner self wanted to explore that side of me. So I guess that's how my blog grew. My blog was my only creative outlet, letting me express the things I couldn't do at office. And little did I know, my blog became a huge part of me. Like, my blog became me. An awakening that made me realize that this is what I LOVE: graphic design, taking pictures, fashion, and creating something from nothing. So it came to me that doing online business in the fashion category would be the best thing for me.

I've always loved things that are colorful too, because colors make me happy. I figured out that my mission in life is to spread happiness by creating something that brings smiles to other people's faces. By delivering more colors. By being positive because positivity is contagious. By helping as many people as I can.

And that was the start of everything. Everything of happiness. I resigned from my job, killed my fear of not having a stable income, and started my Up shoe business. Did my family agree at the beginning? NOPE. But I realized that things take time, and convincing my family about what I decided to become was part of maturing as well. If we can't stand up for ourselves, then we aren't mature enough. That simple.

The journey to understand what we want to be in life can be very tough and full of challenges. But never give up because eventually it'll all just come to you. Like a soulmate. And when it does, go for it. Have no regrets. And have faith.. :)

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Relationship it's not easy

Hoola.. bloogger miss u so much.. semenjak lepas dari bangku perkuliahan dan menjajajaki dunia pekerjaan semenjak tahun ini, blog ini udah makin ga keurus aja yah. kalo ibarat kamar mah udah penuh debu, sumpek dan penuh sama sarang laba-laba disana-sini. Kali ini aku mau sharing dikit nih tentang relationship. What??? hahahha:D
Kalau mau bicara tentang ini sebenarnya saya bukan pakarnya soalnya saya ga punya koneksi yang terlalu banyak. Tapi hanya untuk sekedar sharing aja koq, atau mungkin kalian bisa belajar dari pengalaman saya.
Salah satu penyebab yang bikin saya agak sulit dalam hal ini adalah karena saya itu orang introvert, cenderung penyediri dan ada yang bilang 'unsos'. Eits tapi jangan salah kata seorang yang punya background ilmu psikologi bilang ke saya gini, "kamu emang agak sulit jalin relasi tapi sekalinya udah jalin hubungan, hubungan kamu berkualitas koq'. Setelah saya pikir2 emang bener koq. Saya tuh punya temen deket dikit banget, kalau sekedar kenalan sih banyak.
Kenapa yahh bisa begitu, setelah saya analisis yah karena saya tuh orangnya ga gampang ngasih kepercayaan ke orang gitu deh. Tapi yah kepercayaan itu yang paling penting buat jalin relasi. Gini deh contoh simplenya, saya punya temen yang udah lumayan deket gitu deh, suatu saat dia minjem uang saya dan ternyata dia ga balikin, kan janjinya minjem tuh. harusnya dibalikin kan eh tapi dia anggap enteng gtu aja. hmm sebel deh. Kalo udah percaya padahal enak deh mau sharing apa aja udah ga sungkan lagi. Sama-sama ngeriiin dan ga salah paham lagi.
Satu lagi yang penting dalam bangun relation ialah komunikasi. Yup harus ada komunikasi dari dua pihak. Kalo yang satu cerita terus tapi yang satunya lagi diem2 aja yah buat apa toh. Komunikasi yang lancar bisa bikin kita terupgrade juga loh karena bisa saling kasih input atau sekedar sharing knowledge gitu.. hmmm senengnya. Kalo udah komunikasi jarang kadang kepercayaan bisa turun loh soalnya bisa salah paham gitu deh. begitu juga sebaliknya kalo udah ga percaya gimana mau ngomong sama dia. Intinya keduanya harus balance sih. Segini dulu yah talking2 nya di sesi ini. See you pals!!!

Iman kala di PHP

tuh pemberi harapan palsu. Yups singkatan itu lagi ngetren banget belakangan ini. Intinya sih gini kalo kita udah di iming-imingin terus sempet merasakan untuk seaaat apa yang kita mau tapi langsung diambil saat kita lagi happy happynya yah itu namanya Php. Bete yah jelas kecewa atau desperate yah udah pasti. Tapi beda banget sama Abraham yang kayanya ga ada sedikit pun bete ataupun ngambek sama Tuhan ketika disuruh mempersembahkan anak satu-satunya. Isahk anak semata wayangnya yang di tunggu lama banget dijanjiin bertahun2. Tapi respon Abraham keren langsung tunduk sama otoritas Tuhan tanpa ada ragu sedikitpun. Coba kalo kita di posisi Abraham mungkin ngedumel dulu dan bilang Tuhan PHP bgt sih dulu ngejanjiin yang muluk muluk tapi sekarang koq gini main seenaknya aja ngambil. Abraham punya iman Tuhan bakal nyediaan pengganti anaknya yg harus dikorbankan. Bloggers sering ga sih ada di case yang sama kayak Abraham. Hayo pasti pernah kan? Udah usaha nunggu doa buat mimpi kita trus seneng bgt karena kesampean tapi ga lama kemudian hilang dan diambil gitu aja. Sebel sih tapi yuk belajar Ikhlas fully hope and surrender with God. Tenang percaya deh Tuhan udah nyediaain pengantinya yang much and more and more better. Lewatin ini bakal seru bakal jadi unforgettable memories with God. Ini jug a bakal bawa kamu ke next level. GOD loves u so muachhh eah ... !

Carrer

Hi bloggers miss u so badddd.. Hmm long time no see u all..
Hmm 2014, gilee banget di awal bulan biasa aja ya u knowlah as fresh graduate gw cm apply sana-sini, interview ana itu. Di PHP banyak perusahaan. Kadang bete dirumah tapi untunglah di akhir januari ini gw dapet offering dari sebuah ritel fashion asal negeri gu jun pyo.. yups south korea. Galau abis juga pas beberapa hari sblm hari H gw gawe ada sebuah ritailer kece yang memberikan offering juga. Ah galau mampus ini namanya penungguan beberapa bulan terjawab sudah. Tapi kenapa timingnya harus begini. OMG Exciting bgt deh bisa keterima disana apalagi ada opening ceremonynya segala. Sempet kaget pula pas tau ternyata temen2 intern gw disana berasal dari kampus2 kece, sedangkan gw ya u knowlah. #eitsgabolegitubek.
Tapi oh ternyata setelah gw nyemplung ke dalamnya ternyata berbalik 180 derajat. Gawe berasa berat banget, ngeliat boss kayak ngeliat hantu, ngeliat jam berasa kayak ngeliat bom waktu. Ini perusahaan intl tapi manajemennya parah pisan, turn over karyawannya tinggi, jadi karyawan disini berasa jadi kuli serabutan gtu dan ga ada teamworknya pisan. Ah jadi nyesel kenapa ga milih yang brand retailer aja kmrn. Upps sempet nyesel jadinya apalagi setelah tau itu ternyata high end brand yg cukup dikenal org ritailer di kantor gw. Belum lagi manajer yg intrview gw kece bgt wktu itu. Secara kerjaan 2-2nya gw suka ya karena berhubungan sama fashion, marketing dan ga terlalu monoton gawenya, kadang jadi org lapangan kadang jg jd back office.
Tapi masih ada yang perlu disyukuri karna my working contract just for few month. Seneng sih tapi sedih juga karna ga tau nasib gw untuk beberapa minggu lagi mw gimana. Hmm serba bingung. Pokonya complicated deh, unspeakable guys. Bertahan disini tapi ga nyaman abis ga ada fell sm my boss and my working partner. Nyari lagi ga semudah itu jg. Oh yaudahlah yg penting I have do my best dan finishing well on my choices. help me GOD and support me bloggers!!